Another update

Here is another list, cause I am feeling lazy and  beat up by the month of May.

1.  We survived Brett being gone. No ninjas attacked us in the night.  This week was hectic, we ate out a lot, I will not win any mom of the year award, but everyone is alive.  

2.  I had Ivig on May 1 and 2.  I feel so much better this time around.  I feel like I have turned a corner.  I am not sure how to explain it.  I just feel it.  

3.  Today is my last day of physical therapy.  I have gone religiously since January 2.  I love my PT. I cannot express my gratitude to her.  She is now a friend.  I plan on going back in August when the kids are back in school.  

4.  Mom guilt is the worst guilt ever. EVER!  Gabe missed a field trip this week.  I could not go on Naomi's.  I so wish I could be the mom I used to be.  I know they won't remember these days.  

5.  I am completely off all pain medicine.  Whoohoo!  I would like a margarita please!

6.  Gabe's last day of kindergarten is tomorrow.  He has a program and a picnic.  Just thinking about it is making me tear up.  This boy has had a rough year.  The middle kid.  Hard time learning how to read.  He is behind in school. He has lots of anger.  We are going to see a psychologist.  I think my illness has been the hardest on him.  He and I are connected in a different way.  There have been many times in his life that I think if he could climb back inside of me, he would.  And I have wanted to put him back.  I love all of my kids, but I identify with Gabe.  Do other moms feel this way?  

7.  I took a video of my feet last week.  I am hesitant to post it.  Check back tonight.  I might feel brave enough. 

My grandma has always signed her cards with the words "All my love".   It always made me feel special.  Like I could feel her love in that closing.  So I am going to start signing my posts like that. Because I mean it.  

All my love.